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emelie-02044.livejournal.com

Hey Everyone,

I'm looking for two fics today.

1 - any good outisder POV stories, I love those and cant get enough of them. So any you can get your hands on.

2- Detoxing Sam I have read tons of those but any good recs you can give me. I'll be happy to take them

3 - Detoxing Sam but ones where you ends up like slitting his wrists and drinking his own blood.

Thanks in advance

cmdrtabii.livejournal.com

Hey guys, it's been a while. I'm back with two specific requests, one that I searched for before but never found.

1) crossdressing - Sam and Dean make a bet about something, Sam loses and has to wear a pair of panties, Dean laughs at him and teases him, Sam says something about Dean thinking he's disgusting and gets really upset because he likes wearing the panties. (wincest)

2) suicidal!sam - After Sam finds out he's Lucifer's vessel, he tries to kill himself. Lucifer brings him back but Sam eventually starts committing suicide just to get some rest. This works for a while but eventually the damages start carrying over after he's brought back. (ex. he shoots himself in the head, he's resurrected with a hole in his head; cutting his wrists leaves scars, etc.) (gen, i think)

Thanks for any help!

ithuriel788.livejournal.com

This is what I get for reading old rec lists; broken links. pdf or download, anyone?

Summary: he cleans the knives with methodical precision, but sometimes he cuts his finger on the blade as it comes off the whetstone.

bound-amalthea.livejournal.com

Hey y'all!
Huge throwback search to a specific scene from the season finale of season 4. Where "Dean" (Zachariah) left a hateful voice mail to Sam about how he's a monster.

I'd like any fics that deal with that voice mail. Especially if Sam is depressed/hurt from the voice mail, suicidal even. I don't know why but I like to feel their heartache. I'm weird.
Wincest preferred.

I just finished reading Couples' Counseling by Lazy_daze and was craving some unresolved tension/misunderstanding.

Please and Thank you in advance guys!

morbidangel-89.livejournal.com

I have looked for well over a month to find these and I could use some assiatance.

I remember Sam and Dean lived jn an apartment and Dean took care of Sam and they no longer hunt. It was a series of fics And In one Sam got sick and was having sensory issues and Dean has all these things to help him like a crash pad in the living room and closet with is full of different sensory items like different textures of things and lights depending on whay is needed at the time for Sam. They were eating breakfast and Sam panics and Dean has to take him to the special closet to calm him. Sam also most of the time sleeps in Deans bed with him and it was not a wincest fic. Just for comfort. It states Dean researced autism to help figure out how to deal with Sam's sensory issues. In a fic in the series it talks about Sam's obsession with blankets because soft things remind him he is not it hell anymore.

Any of this ringing any bells for anyone? It is driving me crazy!

Thank you in advance!

P.S : if anyone else also has any good post hell sam fics where Dean has to help take care of him feel free to drop those in as well.

zeldafan4ever.livejournal.com

Then Believe That We Have Lost Our Eyes

To deal with the halucinations he harms himself

gracemurphy.livejournal.com

Just a general, non-specific search for stories that feature mentally ill and/or suicidal Jared or Sam. The more dark and messed up the better, I really want him to hurt (I know, I'm a terrible person). It can be AU, non-AU, gen or slash (but if it's slash please only Wincest or Jared/Jensen). I've seen a lot of mentally ill Sam fics out there but not many ones focusing on Jared. The longer the word count the better. Thanks!

risanette.livejournal.com

Hi everyone!

I want to find a specific pre-series story. In this story, Sam is abused (possibly by John) and Dean takes him away. They live together with Bobby, but Sam grows increasingly clingy and possessive of Dean, and Dean feels obligated to make up for Sam.

I remember a section where Sam cuts his hands because he doesn't like that Dean goes out. Dean later relents under Sam's pressure (so that Sam doesn't hurt himself) but later likes it too. It's wincest.

The story is about 10 chapters long and I remember reading it on livejournal. I am sorry it's vague, but it has been a while since I read it. Thank you!

EDIT: Found it. Should have searched harder before asking but yeaaah.

For those who are also interested: Daddy, Please, No by Hunter King

http://samlikescock.livejournal.com/45275.html

cmdrtabii.livejournal.com

Hey guys it's that time of the month! I was hoping y'all knew where to find any of the following:

1) sam+benny - sam makes a deal with benny to save dean from purgatory. in exchange, he lets benny drink his blood. benny gets addicted and starts draining sam too much. dean eventually catches them. [FOUND]

2) suicidal!sam - it's a season 5 fic where sam is trying to kill himself in an attempt to keep lucifer from using him as a vessel. it never works but the damage he causes in his attempts starts to come back with him when he's resurrected.

3) wincest - any first time wincest/weecest that is super fluffy/sweet/romantic. as long as there's no angst, it's good.

Thanks for any help!

softmoth.livejournal.com

Hi! As I've pretty much combed through the entire AO3 tags and spn pinboard I wanted to ask here as well and see if anyone can point me in the right direction: I'm looking for recs or links to any and all fics that deal specifically with self harm/self injury in ADULT characters (20+) as the main focus of the story. Any genre, any characters, any pairing. I am not looking for highschool AUs or storys depicting teens or younger self injuring. But if it starts with them being younger and then goes on into adulthood, that would work!

What would be amazingly ideal would be non-AU fics involving Dean, Sam, Castiel, or their actor counterparts (Jensen, Jared, or Misha) and involve them being helped or taken care of but again I will take absolutely anything you know of. Thank you!

cmdrtabii.livejournal.com

Hey guys, I'm back and hoping you can help me find any of the following:

1)[FOUND] psychic!sam - a specific sam/jess fic where they and the other psychic kids share a house in california; also any psychic!sam recs where he uses his powers without any angst

2) sick!sam - any stories where sam hide some kind of condition from dean, whether it's hunt injuries/illness/pregnancy/etc.

3)[FOUND] explicit wincest - this is actually a specific story i read a looong time ago and haven't seen since. details under the cut

( here )

I'd prefer any recs be gen or wincest.

Thanks for any help, especially on the last one!

junkerin.livejournal.com

Hi all!

Are there any Selfharm/Suicid Jared fic out there?

I can only find Jensen or Sam.

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blondegeek1989.livejournal.com

Hi all looking for one specific fic that I know I read a while ago but can't find it, I've written what I can remember down below.

1 - Sam and John are fighting so much that they forget about Dean, I think they might have left him after a hunt and drove off, I'm 99% it was pre series. Also any fics that are like this one with Dean being forgotten during one Sam and John's fights.

2 - Also any fics with Sam and Dean having a massive fight, extra points if there is lots of Hurt Dean and it takes a long time for them to make up.

3 - Any decent Dean attempted suicide fics, I have been through pretty much all the tags and wondering if anyone has anymore.

4 - Any good crossover fics with any of these fandoms - The walking Dead, Buffy, Vampire Diaries, Originals, NCIS, Dark Angel, CSI

Also I haven't been apart of the Supernatural fandom for about two years lived in an area with really slow internet and couldn't afford the TV Lisence (I'm from the UK). So any older fics I probably haven't read and I'm still catching up with the last couple of seasons of Supernatural but spoilers don't bother me in the slightest will still read the fics.

Thanks

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amorlegere.livejournal.com

Looking for 1 specific J2 fic and 3 specific wincest fics.
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I went through the tags here and searched via google for these fics but nothing came up. I'm terrible with google search though, Hopefully someone can help me thanks :)

rissa-dawn.livejournal.com

Alrighty, I am seriously having trouble finding fics that don't that are not beyond frustrating either because it is a dead fic unfinished, the plot rocks but the writing makes me want to cry in horror, the writing is to wind baggery for my attention span (like 'you need to turn left, then right, then circle back around...ect' when only need to say 'it is right beside you'). OR TOO SHORT AND NOT SQUEAL IN SIGHT :''(

1. I would love if people can rec fics that boys are bamf and get things done. You know where they are kicking arse and taking names. Whether as hunters or supernatural creatures. Maybe the boys boys destroying some kind of system/plane of existance or just a kick arse on hunt.

2. Fics with Sam having a record of addiction (drugs, self-harm, tobacco, ect) before (and maybe after if you have some) the demon blood.

3. Anyone have any dark!stanford fics.

4. Season Eight Universe Alterations. Where everyone gets their crap together and it either gets better or worse, or everyone stop brushing everyone eles mental states off.

5. Any fics that are based in canon and the boys are angels in there own rights.

Any pairing, any type. No rules, just fics.

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anepidemic.livejournal.com

Hi.

General request: anything where Dean asks a former hook-up not to terminate a pregnancy and to let him have custody...or just where he raises his child. I'd like a focus on him preparing to change his life and provide for a child.

The specific fic is fairly kinky.

I read it ages ago. I can't recall who was in it. It was probably wincest or AU J2.

It had one character who would self-harm. The other character didn't have any desire or inclination toward hurting the first character, but took over the responsibility of harming, so to speak, so that the first character wouldn't end up doing permanent damage. If I recall, I don't think it was a traditional d/s story. I remember it being described tenderly that there was a lot of love between the two, and the harming was seen as selfless to give the first character what he needed. I cannot remember which character was which.

the-leggy-texan.livejournal.com

I've been reading some Sam angst recently but now I'd like some that is focused on Dean. Fics featuring Depressed or suicidal or self-harming are what I'm looking for. No death fics, please. Happy endings are a must, and plenty of caring and protective Sam. Nothing too long (I can only take angst in small doses)20,000-ish words, and preferably no Castiel. No fics that feature John being an asshole. Gen or Wincest is fine, bottom!Dean if there is any sex.

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rosworms.livejournal.com

I'm looking for a specific story, but I also love the whole genre of depressed teenage Sam... so fic recs are welcome in addition to finding the specific story.

I don't remember much about the story, but I remember how it emotionally impacted me. So I'm trying to find it again.

Here is what I can recall:

-Winchesters get to a town where they are going to stay for a while. I think, right away, Sam doesn't like it.
-Sam has a sketchbook. He likes to draw.
-At one point, Sam tears up a picture he drew of Dean and himself. This part is important and I think it's when he reaches rock bottom.
-I'm pretty sure Sam self harms in this story (not certain, but pretty sure).
-It's a slow decline, for Sam, into this pit of depression and low self worth.

darkkoori.livejournal.com

Okay so I've been searching for this fic for a few months now and I can not find it anywhere I'm positive it's real and I didn't just imagine it. Anyway what I remember is it was when the boys where teenagers and the scene that I can remember is Sam standing on the bed really sad because he is in love with Dean and thinks Dean will never return his feelings and is cutting himself and Dean finds out. The next part is what really stands out to me it's where Dean takes Sam into the bathroom and makes Sam look at himself in the mirror while Dean talks about how good Sam looks or something I'm almost positive that while in front of the mirror Dean rims Sam. Anyway any help would be extremely helpful thanks!!

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swinchester96.livejournal.com

I don't know the exact details of them but this is what I can remember.

1) I think its a sequel to another fic where Sam was kidnapped but that might have just been at the beginning of the book. Sam is struggling to cope after it happens and ends up in a pyschiatric ward. He then tries to kill himself and one of the doctors stayed with him all night after it happened to try and calm him down and then Dean goes and visits him and they end up falling asleep on the couch before someone slams the door waking them up. I think Sam asks why Dean wants to take him home.

2) It's either wee!chester or teen!chester and Dean gets hurt on a hunt and John refuses to let Sam come to the hospital to see him. I think Bobby and maybe Pastor Jim or Caleb are in this story. They try and talk some sense into John but John isn't having any of it. John says something really harsh to Sam when he calls him and then I think Bobby shouts at John. Sam is upset by what's happening and I think he ends up in the hospital too.

Sorry for the terrible descriptions.

Thanks xxx

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