Fic I am unable to find!!!

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Okay so I've been searching for this fic for a few months now and I can not find it anywhere I'm positive it's real and I didn't just imagine it. Anyway what I remember is it was when the boys where teenagers and the scene that I can remember is Sam standing on the bed really sad because he is in love with Dean and thinks Dean will never return his feelings and is cutting himself and Dean finds out. The next part is what really stands out to me it's where Dean takes Sam into the bathroom and makes Sam look at himself in the mirror while Dean talks about how good Sam looks or something I'm almost positive that while in front of the mirror Dean rims Sam. Anyway any help would be extremely helpful thanks!!