Lack of faith/trust wincest fanfic recs

[inuchan714.livejournal.com]

I was rewatching S5 but more specifically, 5.18 and what caught my attention was the difference in trust levels between Sam and Dean. In S4 and S5, there are situations that occurred to both Sam and Dean. It clearly shows that Sam is willing and will blindly trust Dean to do the right thing despite what everyone thinks. On the other hand, with a similar situation, Dean makes the decision to not trust Sam to do the right thing , like say no to lucifer because he thinks Sam's not strong enough. Even Dean says so himself that he didn't trust Sam despite, later that Sam let Dean out of the panic room based on his blind trust/faith. Getting back to the point: I'm looking for fics that address this point.

1. Either related to the episode
2. Fics that show Dean's little or lack of faith in Sam and that has consequences such as Sam getting hurt (emotionally,physically) Of course, happy ending is wonderful. I do prefer wincest and more toward bottom!sam and hurt!sam.

Comments

[jasmineisland.livejournal.com]

I have some.

Some of these Sam gets hurt, some he hurts himself, so there is some alcohol issues and a few suicidal Sam stories in here.
During Point of No Return Sam decides it's time. He get Cas to help him carry out Anna's plan. Cas finds an angel who is willing to do it, and they carry out the plan. Sam gives letters to Cas for Bobby and Dean. But Michael catches up with them and restores Sam. Dean is forced to realize how big a hand he played in his brother's deep self hatred and suicidal tendencies. Author has no masterpost, so here are the links to the chapters:
Chapter 1 http://sylvia37.livejournal.com/713.html
Chapter 2 http://sylvia37.livejournal.com/897.html
Chapter 3 http://sylvia37.livejournal.com/1076.html
Chapter 4 http://sylvia37.livejournal.com/1343.html
Chapter 5 http://sylvia37.livejournal.com/1710.html
Chapter 6 http://sylvia37.livejournal.com/1859.html
Chapter 7 http://sylvia37.livejournal.com/2072.html

During the split of S5, Sam decides to end it. The End version of Lucifer gives Dean a lot more detail on what his rejection did to Sam. What Sam's time without Dean was like. Sam sends Bobby an email, thanking him and telling him where to find his body. Dean gets there just as Sam pulls the trigger. Lucifer comes, gives Dean more details regarding the hunters after Sam, then brings Sam back.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5484611/1/One_Shot

Self recs
- When Dean threw the amulet away, it destroyed both of them. The orchestrated trip to Heaven did far more damage than either angels or demons anticipated. Further misunderstandings, hurt, and anger drives them apart. Sam is led down a path of revenge, fire, and a desperate plea to an unlikely source. Dean is hell bent on revenge, but he is forced to realize that they have been played by masters that have had centuries to perfect their games. Now all he can think of is how to find his little brother before it’s too late.
http://jasmineisland.livejournal.com/11107.html

Set AU following On The Head Of a Pin. Used and abused by angels and demons, the Winchesters are farther apart than ever in their own pain. Until Sam is forced to make a decision that changes everything, and Dean finds himself understanding his brother better than Sam ever hoped he would.
http://jasmineisland.livejournal.com/16652.html

Here is the prompt:Set season 4/5-ishDean and Castiel have a bond, no question and they're becoming good friends and Dean is coming to depend more and more and Castiel on hunts.Sam however, is feeling more and more isolated and lonely because all of a sudden, Dean doesn't seem to trust him or his opinion. No matter what, Dean wants to check things with Castiel and Sam's becoming more and more depressed that an angel has replaced him as Dean's hunting partner and and he begins to drink.He tries to keep it hidden, but eventually(how it comes out is up to you), Dean figures it out.Cue guilty!angry!Dean realizing that he's been neglecting his big!brother duties and helping Sam kick his borderline alcoholism.
http://jasmineisland.livejournal.com/15494.html

Back to other recs
Dean doesn't trust Sam and won't accept his input. So when a hunt goes wrong, Sam takes the hit. He takes on a spirit to protect Dean to get Dean to act like his brother again.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6159057/1/Distracted

After a disastrous demon hunt S5, Sam is left in a coma. Dean dreamwalks through his head, finding out how long and deep Sam's self-hatred went.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5354065/1/Between-the-Lines-of-Fear-and-Blame

[jasmineisland.livejournal.com]

More- Damn LJ and character limits!
S5. Dean doesn't trust Sam, and he's running his brother ragged. Going into a Wendigo hunt half assed just because he's pissed leads to Sam throwing himself between Dean and the wendigo. Cas saves them, but Dean has a lot of apologizing to do when he realizes that he almost killed his brother.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6146022/1/A-Matter-of-Trust

Dean may have invited Sam back, but Sam really isn't handling everything too well. He's hurt both physically and emotionally and he's convinced his brother hates him. One shot set after 5x04 'The End.'
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8559692/1/I-ll-Never-Hurt-You

Season 5 during the anger/betrayal from Dean, they are attacked by gun runners. By the time Dean reaches Sam, he's been tied up in the desert for hours. Dean realizes he's broken what was left of Sam after Lillith and Ruby. He begins to fix them.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8421481/1/

Post MBV Dean is still furious with Sam. They argue, throwing painful insults at each other. A truck runs them off the road and the Impala goes down a hill. Dean is thrown clear, but Sam is crushed in the car. When both of them pass out, Lucifer appears, begging Dean to tell him where they are so he can save Sam.
http://checkthemargins.livejournal.com/1882.html

Coda to Sex and Violence Dean is at the bar while Sam goes to get Peanut M&M;'s. Sam is mugged and stabbed. Dean was contemplating not trusting Sam and could he actually kill his brother before he finds Sam bleeding out on the floor.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/4846353/1/In_The_End

After Sympathy For The Devil Dean can't let go of his anger at both of them. They aren't speaking, which is the worst time to go on a hunt. During an exorcism, the demon flings them into each other. Dean's knife ends up in Sam.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5409262/1/Atlas_Endures

Sam has changed. Dean thinks it's not for the better, but a disastrous hunt, and a supernatural hitchhiker show Dean that he is just as responsible for the way Sam is going downhill.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6634809/1/Changes

I have to say this one just broke my heart
Drunk Dean beats Sam. Then he realizes what he's done and tries to make up for it. Sam believes he deserves it. S5.
http://ohsam.livejournal.com/268016.html?thread=1867760#t1867760

S5 after they split up. Lucifer shows Sam gratitude for freeing him. He realizes that all Sam wants is for Dean to understand.
https://www.fanfiction.net/s/5397058/1/Gratitude

Coda to My Bloody Valentine- Bobby leaves Cass to deal with Drunk Dean and Withdrawal Sam. Dean is finished with his brother. Sam is hurting and only wants his brother.
http://ohsam.livejournal.com/69876.html#

Sam is injured and Dean thinks he drank Demon Blood
http://ohsam.livejournal.com/89989.html#

[inuchan714.livejournal.com]

Thank you so so much for the recs!! Happy Holidays!

[sinka.livejournal.com]

No the op, but this is probably my favorite kind of hurt!sam so this is a treasure trove! Thank you!

[jasmineisland.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I guess I got carried away with the S5 theme more than the OP, but feel free to browse my delicious. LOTS more hurt Sam. Some are trust issues in other seasons.
https://delicious.com/jasmineisland

[sinka.livejournal.com]

I'll definitely check them!! I'll never get tired of hurt!sam stories in S5. The pain and regret and self-hate was just too delightful!

[inuchan714.livejournal.com]

Op here. There is nothing wrong at all with loving hurt!sam!! I started SPN in S8 and i'm trying to find and read all the hurt!Sam fics, esp in earlier seasons but its hard sometimes since its so far back for some like S1 or S2. Some authors delete and I don't want to miss any great fics. Thanks again jasmineisland! Also, any particular other fics you guys rec that has to be read? Sometimes its hard to find ppl who like the same genre of fics...