cross-dressing!cas and mental illnesses

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hey there, 

i got a sudden urge to read stories about low self esteem!cas who is so lost with himself, maybe mentally ill or something and starts cross-dressing thinking that dean wants him to be pretty and beautiful woman. dean of course doesn't want that and cas gets it wrong etc. i'm not looking for any cross-dressing kinks, pwp fics and pointless porn, i want storys and actual plot. i want cas to be messed up and dean trying to help and getting worried. 
i'd also like to read this woman!cas as MPD ( multiple personality disorder ). you know, cas having normal cas personality and then this woman side. i don't have any exaples for you, but maybe if you have seen movie like peacock you may know what i mean ? i guess that there might not be much this kind of fics but please, if you know any, link it

anyway, then i would like to read mostly any kind of mental illness!cas stories. i don't want him to be in hospital ( he can get there in the end, but i dont want him to be there whole time ). i don't have any bigger criterions this time ( but must be destiel ), just maybe your personal favourites ?
surprise me !