I'm looking for fics which address the difference in how obsessed Sam was: a) in finding a cure for Dean in S1's "Faith" b) breaking Dean's deal in S3 c) resurrecting Dean in the gap between S3-4, and his current attitude/choices in the gap between S7-8. Or sometime earlier would be okay too. I just want all those fics that include moments of "we used to love each other so fiercely... what happened to us?"
I'm
not looking for character studies.
I mean any fics where Sam is forced to acknowledge the difference, for example:
-either brother is de-aged and only remembers the Sam that adored Dean and would do anything to emulate/protect him
-time travel of some kind; they meet their younger selves, they are body swapped with their younger selves etc.
-selective amnesia
-any similar scenarios caused by magic/MotW etc.
The overall plot line of the fic isn't important, I just want that moment when Sam realises how much he has changed.
A good example of the kind of thing I mean would be
this scene in Little Child where Sam wants "the Dean that loves him and isn't angry all the time" back (role-reversed).
No het please; gen or slash. Wincest is fine, as long as there is a clear focus on their relationship as brothers as well as lovers. Destiel is also fine, especially if Cas is the reason why Sam acknowledges the change.
Thank you cuddles in advance for any recs!! :)