Looking for Suicidal Sam, post Southern Comfort

[onehotmama199.livejournal.com]

The title pretty much says it all, I'm hoping to find some recs for Suicidal Sam, after the events of Southern Comfort. Any pairing or gen is fine.

Thanks, lovelies!

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[alexxkah.livejournal.com]

Do you only want season 8 fics or are all suicidal!Sam fics fine?

Unfortunately, I don't have any s8 but I can rec you two of my favourites - in both of them Sam tried to commit suicide, they're pretty angsty but there's a happy ending. But I understand if it's not what you are looking for :)

It's also possible you've already read them, but anyway:


Baba O'Riley and Eleanor Rigby walk into a bar (http://sammehsayum.livejournal.com/4122.html), Sam/Dean -
sammehsayum - When Dean Winchester was four years old he almost lost his younger brother for the first time to a fire. When Dean Winchester was eighteen he almost lost his brother a second time to a full bathtub and a pack of sleeping pills, citing some decidedly unbrotherly feelings in his suicide note. At twenty-two he's about to lose him for a third time to Stanford University.


The Ghost of Somebody At His Side (http://runedgirl.livejournal.com/43984.html), Sam/Dean - runedgirl - The night before Sam Winchester meets with his 12th grade guidance counselor for the second time, something very bad happens. One of those somethings that takes only a ridiculously short amount of time – in this case, about three minutes – yet manages to change the course of two lives forever.

[onehotmama199.livejournal.com]

"The Ghost of Somebody at His Side" just gutted me. Im supposed to be studying and I couldn't because this took hold of me and wouldn't let go, 'til I was near done in. Thanks for that. No really, thank you!

[alexxkah.livejournal.com]

I am so glad you liked it! :) That's exactly how I felt when I read it. It was gut-wrenching but so good I just had to keep reading. Most of runedgirl's fics had this effect on me actually :)

[onehotmama199.livejournal.com]

I'm specifically looking for those after Dean's coin induced tongue lashing, in Sourhern Comfort, but I'll take any! Thanks.

[twistofapen.livejournal.com]

Fell on Black Days (http://snarkymuch.livejournal.com/21314.html) by snarkymuch
Post Southern Comfort. You can only take so much before you break. Since Dean returned from purgatory, Sam has been taking hits. This is one hit too many.

Signals and Noise (http://reading-is-in.livejournal.com/103712.html) by reading_is_in
Dean's actions in "Southern Comfort" send Sam spiraling back into his season five headspace. On Thanksgiving, he decides to kill himself and Dean walks in just before he can do it.

Choices (https://www.fanfiction.net/s/8705835/1/Choices) by RainbowBetty
Sam hadn't made mistakes. He'd made choices. And now, with the gun pointed to his head, there was really just one choice left to make. AU aftermath of 8.06

The Worst Kind of Freedom (https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9590609/1/The-Worst-Kind-of-Freedom) by gammadolphin
The things Dean said to his brother while under the influence of the cursed penny broke something inside of Sam. With no hope of fixing his relationship with Dean, Sam turns to the only option he has left to set himself and his brother free.

[onehotmama199.livejournal.com]

Thank you, so much!

[phoenix1966]

Lost Without You by Wincesterrific Kaz on Ao3.
Summary: Sam hits a new low and makes a confession. Post 8x06 “Southern Comfort” a little angst and a lot of cheerful naughty. Dean/Sam

Sam's Confession by morganadw on Ao3.
Summary: The fights and bitterness between them have finally driven Sam past the breaking point, forcing him to make a choice that he might not return from. He leaves Dean everything including a heartbreaking confession on the laptop that not only reveals some things Dean didn’t know of that lost year but also a startling secret that Sam’s kept for thirteen years…a secret that forces Dean to examine a lot as he rushes to not only save Sam but to face how much he’s willing to change. *Angsty/depressed/dark thoughts/suicidal!Sam & Upset/ angry/concerned!Dean* Set in S8 between Torn and Frayed and LARP & The Real Girl.

[onehotmama199.livejournal.com]

Can't wait to get started. Thanks!

[ithuriel788.livejournal.com]

I keep a list of suicidal!sam fic here (http://ithuriel788.livejournal.com/1252.html). Scroll down to the category "The Penny Dropped" for post-Southern Comfort