Betrayal, hurt by someone trusted, epic angst

[hanakadlecova.livejournal.com]

Hi everyone :-)

I am looking for stories in which one character is hurt and/or betrayed by a person they loved and trusted. It doesn't matter if it's just a misunderstanding or the character doing the harm is truly evil. The longer, the better. Podfics are love. Please only Jensen/Dean, Jared/Sam, John/Jeffrey, no Castiel/Misha as a major character (I love Misha btw, just not in fics for some reason). Gen or slash, doesn’t matter. I feel like I have read and listened to pretty much everything out there, hope you prove me wrong!

I have listed a few categories of betrayal with examples to illustrate better. I have included links to stories which might be more difficult to google.

Watch out spoilers ahead!!!!

Hurt because of:
Abandonment (The Jared Padalecki Untitles, Do I seem bulletproof to you?)
Lies and manipulation (Someone you might have been)
Physical abuse, corporal punishment (pretty much anything by http://purple-carpets.livejournal.com/ – my goddess!).
sexual abuse (Swine http://archiveofourown.org/works/1126205, pretty much anything by leonidaslion)
Kidnapping and enslavement (The Golden Cage http://archiveofourown.org/works/5083330, Retail Therapy http://archiveofourown.org/series/248554)
cheating (A kept boy)
selfharm or suicide (In the mirror broken and indistinct, Have you seen him whom my soul loves http://archiveofourown.org/works/666813)

Thanks a million!

(omg, so many warnings to include, hope I got all down, and apologies if not!)

Comments

[mangacat201.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if it's exactly what you're looking for, but maybe it'll tickle your fancy, so anyway, here's one fic out of my stable that you might wanna check out "Wicked Game" https://archiveofourown.org/works/3955240 (I do recommend consumption by podfic, because silky did an awesome job!)

[kaligrrrl.livejournal.com]

this is a GREAT fic!

[mangacat201.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you, I'm glad it fit the bill! Btw, if you do enjoy Demon!Dean (though of season four AU variety) and lets say complicated violent relationships, there's no way past runedgirl's Fade to Black series if you haven't already read it. Come to think of it, all her stuff is very much hurty and worth reading!

[kaligrrrl.livejournal.com]

thanks! :)

[hanakadlecova.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for your rec :-)

[lucifersprize.livejournal.com]

In the lies and manipulation category there is the J2 fic Have Hatred and Gravity Won (http://archiveofourown.org/works/889497/chapters/1715584) with Jensen as a mercenary on a mission to cause the downfall of the president, Jared's father.

[hanakadlecova.livejournal.com]

Sounds intriguing, will sure check it out :-)

[jennylynneh.livejournal.com]

To get you started...

And Mars Rose in the West (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1363600)
When Jared was eight years old, the King of Acklesland decided that his family, the noble Padaleckis, posed too much of a threat to royal authority to live. As the only survivor of what becomes known as the Padalecki Massacre, Jared has been living in hiding as a peasant ever since. But when the Prince’s Dragon Warriors come recruiting, he is tossed back into a world of intrigue, politics, and secrets, and forced to confront the very man who ordered his family’s murder.

A Beautiful Beast (http://archiveofourown.org/works/289245)
Burdened by his past, the oh-so-beautiful Jensen isn’t entirely certain how to act when he’s approached by the homeless man that’s been stalking the book store he works in. He learns pretty quickly, however, that like himself, this man is not at all like he might seem.

Beautiful Disaster (http://archiveofourown.org/works/442979)
Rock Band AU. Jensen’s the lead guitarist in the number one rock band in the country. Justin’s the lead singer, and they’ve been doing this together since middle-school, been together since just after high school. As on top of the world as they are, Jensen’s starting to become disillusioned with the lifestyle and his crumbling relationship with Justin. And then he meets a new roadie on the crew named Jared who’s got a voice like an angel and a heart to match, and everything starts to change.

Believe in Nothing But (http://archiveofourown.org/works/291476)
Jared figures he knows everything he needs to know about his boyfriend. Everything important, anyway. Right up to the night he gets attacked in his own home, waking up in the company of someone who will show him how little he knows about the man he calls Jensen Jones.

Bring Me to Life (http://archiveofourown.org/works/379484)
Jared’s a shy young man, whose life has never been easy. His father hates him, his mother drinks her sorrows away and his husband Paul treats him like he is nothing more than a beautiful toy. When his husband has to go away on a business trip to Europe for two months, he sends Jared away to a ranch in the middle of nowhere to keep him under control. There, Jared meets people who show him what love, friendship and loyalty mean for the first time in his life. Can he escape his life and finally find some love and happiness for himself?

Charades (http://archiveofourown.org/works/697816)
"Jared is a super villain, Jensen's a superhero. They fall in love in their civilian identities, neither of them aware of the other's extracurricular activities. Jared is faced with a choice when his teammates manage to capture and unmask Jensen: his friends and the life he knows or the man he loves."

Come What Come May (Time and the Hour Runs Through the Roughest Day) (http://archiveofourown.org/works/4391834)
Jensen, a student at the University of Washington and grumpy person in general, is not at all impressed by the fact that Jared Padalecki, son of a famous country singer and a popular Hollywood actor and general heartthrob of the nation, also decides to study at the same university. He's also not happy about the fact that he ends up at Jared's house party thanks to his best friend Danneel, but the morning after a panic attack, when he wakes up in a strangers bed, he realizes that Jared Padalecki maybe isn't as bad of a human being as the magazines make him out to be.

[jennylynneh.livejournal.com]

Failure to Communicate (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1855399)
They say that communication is the key to a good marriage…

Jared is a high-profile attorney—the youngest lawyer employed at the prestigious law firm of Morgan & Sheppard—and he has just made partner after several long and grueling months.

Jensen is a famous murder-mystery writer (also a semi-retired actor). He has just weeks to submit the final manuscript in his biggest contract yet.

Both men are tired and worn out, their marriage taking a backseat to their careers. Add a spark of jealousy to the mix and, well, it’s a recipe for disaster.


Fighting for Him (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1967364)
28-year-old Jensen Ackles is fighting to escape his memories of pain and abuse. He longs for someone who will love him, someone he can trust. Someone like the mysterious soldier he’s been dreaming of since childhood. Can the ghost of an ancestor who shares his name help him while also fulfilling a promise he made 151 years ago?

Captain Jared Padalecki awakened in a world that was not his own. Before he can try to sort things out, the spirit of his lover urges him to save a young man from a murderer’s bullet: a young man who bears an amazing resemblance to his lover, Jensen.

As Jensen’s past catches up to him and puts his life in danger, Jared realizes he is falling for the battered young man. The soldier realizes that to be true to himself, he must fight for this boy even if it means making a choice that will break his own heart.


Flight Risk (http://archiveofourown.org/works/2044173)
On his way to a date with long-time "friend with benefits", JDM, Jensen hits a young, terrified man with his car. Against better judgement, he takes the man home to his place to heal. Then he has a mystery to unravel.


Folie a Deux (http://archiveofourown.org/works/583996)
This is the story of Jensen Ackles, a neurotic, self-absorbed painter unable to resist a certain pair of magnetic eyes, and his 'accidental' muse with a sordid, mysterious past. But who is this Tristan Winslow really? And why is Jensen so hell-bent on repeating the mistake that once nearly cost him his life?


Free Fall (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1182371)
Pairing: Jensen/JDM, Jensen/OMCs, Jensen/Jared
Summary: Jensen is just an out of luck teen hooker until he meets a kindly john who takes him in, but Jeff wants more than a boyfriend. He wants his perfect fantasy.
Warnings: Feminization, underage (Jensen is 17), nipple play, rimming, milking, body modification, light bondage, kidnapping, non-con, suicidal ideation.


The Future is Mine to See (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1552505)
Jen is an oracle who can see the future; Jay, the bodyguard of the Norman warlord who is responsible for the death of Jen's father and the murder of many of Jen's people. Jay takes Jen as 'a spoil of war' and Jen fears the worst. However Jay is a man of dignity and honour and Jen cannot help but fall in love with him. Despite the fact he finds happiness with Jay, Jen is determined to kill the man who murdered his father. Will his act of revenge lose him the man he has come to love?


Gone but not forgotten (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1979133)
Jared and Jensen were childhood sweethearts, but then Jared and his family disappeared. Jensen was forced to move on and became a FBI agent, but always wondered about Jared. His questions are in part answered, when a mansion belonging to the Mafia gets raided. Jared is one of the slaves they rescue, and Jensen immediately wants to help him. Jared is now a very different man from the boy Jensen remembers and trust is one of the furthest things on Jared’s mind, but with patience, Jensen reminds Jared what it feels like to be loved and protected, and slowly Jared’s story begins to unravel.


The Great Art of Life Is Sensation (http://archiveofourown.org/works/361113)
Jensen is an empath trained by a military organization. Jared is his mission's target. Will Jensen's strict training help him resist the pull that is J-squared?

[jennylynneh.livejournal.com]

The Hunter and his Prey (http://archiveofourown.org/4132423)
Jeff is Jared's abusive husband. When Jared escapes him, Jeff sends Jensen, a bounty hunter, after Jared. Only Jensen finds Jared a little too irresistible and without telling Jared of his contract with Jeff, starts a slow tentative relationship with him. Jeff comes after both of them.


If I only had All of You (http://archiveofourown.org/works/442573)
Jared has almost everything he could ever hope for, a job he loves, great friends and family, and a marriage to his best friend since he was a freshman in college. The only thing lacking in his life is to be the only man his husband desires. But due to a pact made almost ten years earlier it’s the only thing he feels he has no right to want.


I think it's time to give this game a ride" (http://archiveofourown.org/works/4906105)
Jared Padalecki loves his summer softball, and his team doesn't take it too lightly either. They play with a vengeance and are still in a deep, hate-filled rivalry with the league's other hot team. Jared's play lights up when he hooks up with Jensen Ackles, but will the hot streak last all summer long? He has to face the rivals and what created it in the first place.


Into Hiding (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1291999)
Jensen Ackles, Dallas Police Officer, finds himself in a club looking for something that doesn't involve dancing. Before he knows what hit him he's being seduced by a handsome stranger. The stranger, who turns out to be a hooker, holds more secrets than Jensen signed up for. When Jensen begins to fall for the young man he has to learn about the deathly danger following their every step.


Jensen Ackles Doesn't Exist (http://archiveofourown.org/works/4413380)
In hindsight he realises that, had he just stayed put, had he not worried about the shoelace sticking out from under the desk where he was hiding, they probably wouldn’t have seen him. But they did.


Kisses Sweeter Than Wine (http://archiveofourown.org/series/4516)
Texas in July is not exactly where Jensen Ackles has any desire to be, but a job's a job and interviewing Jared Padalecki, the most famous and successful winner of America's Next Celebrity Chef for Saveur magazine isn't something Jensen's going to turn down. He'll do the interview, try not to laugh, and get back on the plane. Jared isn't any happier at the thought of yet another interview with someone who's already made up his mind that Jared's nothing but a pretty face, but the network insists, so fine. He'll do the interview, practice his patience, and be done with it.

Funny how things don't quite work out that way.

[jennylynneh.livejournal.com]

The Last Light I See (http://archiveofourown.org/works/5007877)
When Jensen wakes up in the hospital, he wakes up confused and alone. There's no family or friends worrying over his bedside, no cards or flowers. The doctor quietly informs him of three things: his name, that he was beaten and mugged, and that he's tested positive for Super. On the long road of recovery from a brutal attack, Jensen slowly starts to piece together what kind of man he was, the kind he wants to be, and why the tall, ridiculously gorgeous gardener seems to hate his guts.

Living with the Witness (http://archiveofourown.org/works/948111)
When police officer Jensen Ackles gets back to his home town he doesn’t expect things to get exciting. But when he meets Jared Padalecki he starts to doubt he will ever lead a normal life.

When the murders start, he knows that his life isn’t going to be quiet from now on.

Mirror, Mirror (http://archiveofourown.org/works/819945)
Jensen Ackles is a well-respected photographer, courted by the media and the shiny people of Tinseltown. Sadly, he's getting bored with success and beginning to become self destructive. In an attempt to break Jensen out of his ennui, his friend, Steve Carlson, offers him a challenge. "Take the first person we meet when we leave the party and make them into a star before the year is over..."

Schemes (Are Not Just for Melodramatic Bond Villains) (http://archiveofourown.org/works/364571)
While broadening his gay horizons, architect!Jared meets waiter!Jensen at a strip club. Jensen is shy, Jared is smitten, and Jeff is a smarmy bastard.

There's a Hole in Me, Just the Size of You (http://archiveofourown.org/works/338644)
“All right, Mr. Padalecki, let’s see what we can do for you today,” he said breezily as he pushed into the room.

It wasn’t until the words had left his mouth, until they were hanging in the silent room like unexploded bombs, that Jensen realized what he’d just said.

Jensen stared hard at the chart in his hands, at the name etched across the top in Alexis’s neat script, the name he hadn’t paid attention to as he thought about Jeff and the others. All the air was suddenly sucked out of the room and Jensen struggled to breathe, his heart trip-hammering against his ribcage.

“Oh, shit,” he whispered, white knuckled grip on the chart. He didn’t want to look up, didn’t want to see, because what were the chances that there were two people in the world with that name?

“Jensen?”

The sound of his name got Jensen breathing again, sucking in a huge lungful of air and he slowly looked up at the man sitting on the bed.

The only man Jensen ever wanted to see, and the one man he never wanted to see again, was staring at him like he’d just sprouted wings.

[jennylynneh.livejournal.com]

Underneath 'verse (http://archiveofourown.org/series/161699)
Jensen is the undercover FBI agent sent to take Jared, the boss of Chicago, out. This is their story.

The Unsuitable Slave (http://archiveofourown.org/series/26081)
War and slavery are brutal and prophecies aren't always what they seem.

When Prince Jared was seven he met Prince Jensen. Jared thought Jensen was the most exciting boy he’d ever met. Jensen just wanted to keep Jared.

Six months before Prince Jared comes of age and succeeds to the throne of a Realm at war he stands alone and betrayed, against an overwhelming enemy. He makes a sudden and most unwise decision.

Prince Jensen’s choice of slave is widely regarded as unsuitable and unwise too.

[hanakadlecova.livejournal.com]

OMG, girl! Thank you so much for such an avalanche of recs, it will take some time to get through those, yay :-)!

[jennylynneh.livejournal.com]

And that was just were I got tired typing them in. ;) I'm not usually "up" on the more recent fics, but I know where all the oldies are. :D

[clockworkfabled.livejournal.com]

Have you read Catching Hell by ADeedWithoutAName? Not sure it's exactly what you're looking for but there are huge amounts of angst and it's a really excellent fic with demon!Dean and amazing character development.

[hanakadlecova.livejournal.com]

I haven't but it sounds like something I would enjoy, thanks for reccing :-)!