Wincest with reluctant!sam

[findmefiction.livejournal.com]

Hello :)

So obviously I'm a massive fan of wincest, but I've noticed a general pattern when it comes to first time!fics, usually involving Dean freaking out about the whole incest thing; about 'corrupting' his little brother, but Sam being the one who's less freaked out by the whole thing and trying to convince Dean to take the plunge. So. Today, I was wondering if I could find any fics in the opposite of that, with the roles of the boys reversed. I'm not necessarily looking for guiltless!Dean (although those recs would be more than welcome too), but just generally where Dean is the one who's resigned and accepting of their feelings for each other as he sees it as inevitable of the way they've been raised (or whatever reasoning), and Sam being the one to freak out.

I don't actually know of any of those fics actually exist, but I would greatly appreciate if anyone could point me towards at least one of them like this.

Thank you! :)

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I don't know if it's exactly what you're looking for - http://archiveofourown.org/works/3229928 "Dad Would Kick Our Asses" - but this author's fics are all possessive Dean, who doesn't really feel all that guilty at all.

[findmefiction.livejournal.com]

You're right, it wasn't exactly what I was looking for, but it was still a great fic. So thanks :)

[gleditsia.livejournal.com]

I have just the thing for you! ;)
Say It's Possible (http://vicious-trade.livejournal.com/2658.html) by vicious_trade

[findmefiction.livejournal.com]

Omg, I actually read this fic before! Thanks for reminding me :)

[chellexxx.livejournal.com]

There's a Hole in My Life, I Wish I Could Fill It (With Anything But You) (http://archiveofourown.org/works/912645)
Sam and Dean got together when Sam was sixteen, but Sam figures out pretty quickly that it's not exactly what he wanted. Sex can be used as a tool just like anything else can. When the world-saving fight is over, Sam still wants his brother, but knows he can never have him again. But when Dean asks to start their relationship again, Sam takes drastic measures to ensure what happened last time will never happen again. This story does deal with dubious levels of consent, but I promise you that by the end everyone is happy and enthusiastically consenting.

For love or money (http://www.sinful-desire.org/archive/viewstory.php?sid=3087)
Sam is sixteen years old. Dad is on a hunt. Dean takes him to a club called O'Yes.

I'll Never Let You Go, Little Brother. (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1741022/chapters/3716927?view_adult=true)
When Dean comes back from Purgatory, he sees Sam in another light. He loves his little brother, but he takes their relationship to another level, unfortunately Sam doesn't get to voice an opinion.

Property (http://bitchandjerk.livejournal.com/29105.html)
Sam knows he's being used but he lets Dean do it anyway.

Thank You For Not Loving Me (https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6350260/1/Thank_You_For_Not_Loving_Me) Warning Death Fic
Sam is sick of being only a way to relieve the tension for Dean. He is tired of fighting. What he wants is just one kiss, is that so much to ask?

xxx

[findmefiction.livejournal.com]

Wow, thanks! I actually have read the first fic, but thanks for the others :)

[(Anonymous)]

This one might be what you´re looking for

Home is Where the Heart is by ADeedWithoutaName

http://archiveofourown.org/works/3215822/chapters/6997838

It was wrong. His dad told him that when he was nineteen, drummed it into him. "I don't want to see you and your brother doing anything like this ever again. Understand, Sammy?" Sam understood. And he hasn't even seen Dean since...but now Dad's missing, and Dean's back, and Sam can't help the way he feels.

Sam is very reluctant after John finds out, it´s a WIP but realy good one and already long

[findmefiction.livejournal.com]

Thank you! :D

[(Anonymous)]

It's a shame this scenario isn't more popular, since I headcanon Dean being more okay with it and Sam needing to be talked into it since he wanted normalcy.

Freak Out by annie46fic (http://archiveofourown.org/works/916423)
It's the aftermath of the first time. Sam freaks out about them being brothers. Dean doesn't see it as such a big deal, perhaps more comfortable flipping off society. Dean makes Sam talk about it (cause for all Sam talks about emotions, they are rarely his), and eventually manages to get Sam to a point where he's OK with it. Freaked out Sam, trying to work through his feelings. Complex, loving, Dean, making inappropriate remarks.

Edging Toward Grey by bewaretheides15 (http://archiveofourown.org/works/215342)
Sam doesn't understand the things he's feeling. Luckily he's always got Dean there to help him figure it out.

The second one is teenage wincest.

[findmefiction.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know I was thinking the exact same thing too. But thanks for the recs!

[elwarre.livejournal.com]

I have a bunch of fics tagged as reluctant!Sam (https://delicious.com/elwarre/sam%2Fdean,reluctant!sam), but I can't remember the context for all of them. But here's a couple I'm pretty sure fit the bill:

Between a Rock and a Warm Embrace (https://archiveofourown.org/works/2784656) by samulett: "After two vegetarian restaurants, an almost serious usage of the term “buttercup,” and an incident with Dean's mouth pressed against his ear, Sam came to the disorienting conclusion that they were quite possibly dating. Or, more accurately, that Dean was honest-to-god courting him like a modern-day knight in distressed leather armour."

I Wanna Hold You Til I Die (http://lazy-daze.livejournal.com/468887.html) by lazy_daze: I'm not sure if this fits exactly, because it's a curse lowering Dean's inhibitions, but Sam's still a little weirded out by it.