Hunger Pains/ Exhaustion / Dean sacrificing for Sam

[infinitefeels.livejournal.com]

I'm looking for any fics where Dean has to give up something for himself in order to keep Sam healthy and happy. Anywhere from giving him his money, food, etc.

Angst is good here but if it's really sad (or has a sad ending) please warn me! But hunger pains, dizziness... Dean hurting for Sam basically.

I'd especially love (bonus) for someone (especially an older Sam) to reflect upon or realize how much Dean gave up for Sam. (And that Dean would do it again in a heartbeat.)

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If you don't have any fics like this, maybe you might know of some where Sam or Dean are just pushed to their limits and are exhausted (maybe by John's training) and their demanding lifestyle?

Comments

[hunenka.livejournal.com]

First one long fic that fits your request pretty well:

Things Fall Apart (http://deansamcas.livejournal.com/15297.html) by deansamcas

And some short ones:

I'm Wide Awake It's Morning (http://archiveofourown.org/works/953058) by gameamab

Essentials (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1367134) by Askance

The Shone Light (http://archiveofourown.org/works/1298005) by donutsweeper

Fight Club (http://beesandbrews.livejournal.com/332014.html) by beesandbrews

Warning: these two deal with teenage prostitution:

I Guess We Know the Score (http://purple-carpets.livejournal.com/5771.html) by purple_carpets

Forty-Three Dollars (http://archiveofourown.org/works/2186211) by Valinde

This one's an AU where Sam and Dean quit hunting, and it's Wincest.

Holding the Sky (http://archiveofourown.org/works/937001) by reapertownusa

[elwarre.livejournal.com]

If you like Wincest at all, you've probably read justinedelarge's Sure Got a Dirty Mouth (http://archiveofourown.org/works/411362/chapters/682610), but just in case you haven't, it's wonderful and LONG and has some really great chapters where Sam realizes just how much Dean's given up for him.

This is a completely different take on Dean's self-sacrifice, and I'm not sure whether you'll like it, but it completely broke my heart - Indirect Proof (https://www.fanfiction.net/s/3938325/1/Indirect_Proof) by starliteyes17: "Dean's not just any brother." (Gen)

[elwarre.livejournal.com]

Oh! And The Black Line Below Me (http://archiveofourown.org/works/226167) by smilla: "It doesn't bother Dean any more than some of the other things he's done to survive, but Sam is horrified when he finds out." (Gen, potentially triggery)

[sanshal.livejournal.com]

Hey!
I have a self-rec if you're interested for #1. It's not particularly sad or anything, but yes, it has Dean sacrificing for Sam/ choosing to do something he's not fond of, to help Sam...
Anyway, here's the link-

Broken Soles (http://sanshal.livejournal.com/27037.html)- [Summary- John comes home...]

[infinitefeels.livejournal.com]

That was EXACTLY what I was looking for! Thank you so much!
I love your writing. :)<3

[whoredinary.livejournal.com]

Reverse Engineering 'Verse (http://sparrow-lately.livejournal.com/tag/reverse%20engineering%20verse)
Sam storms out in 2012, and gets lost in 1987. (I'm not sure if this is quite what you're looking for, but it has some elements I think. And it breaks my heart every damn time I read it)

Clairvoyance (http://braveinnewworld.livejournal.com/4895.html)
When Sam's dreams take a different turn, he realizes that he has taken Dean for granted for way too long.

[whoredinary.livejournal.com]

Forgot about these oops!

To Protect and Serve (http://deandamage.com/viewstory.php?sid=85)
Just what would Dean do for his brother and what can John do to stop him.

I would also recommend checking out this request (http://spnstoryfinders.livejournal.com/5075072.html) that someone else sent in.

[infinitefeels.livejournal.com]

Just read Protect and Serve! That's perfect!
Thank you for the other storyfinders entry too!

[infinitefeels.livejournal.com]

Clairvoyance is a fav of mine. Can't wait to check out the Reverse Engineering Verse!
Thank you!

[cheeseontoast1.livejournal.com]

Rules for Hunting (http://procrastin8or9.livejournal.com/2484.html) is a really really great fic, and I think fits what you're looking for very well (tw: eating disorders)

Another one, a bit more cheesy this time, only features grown up!Sam and Dean - The Joy of Eating (http://hoodie-time.livejournal.com/608041.html?thread=8042537#t8042537)

[infinitefeels.livejournal.com]

I had read Rules for Hunting before but never saved it, so thank you for the rec!
The Joy of Eating was also great. Cheesy is good. :)