spnstoryfinders_lj | Looking for Specific Fic - Sam/Dean, non-con, curse fic

Hello!

I am looking for a story I read quite a while ago and I thought I saved it, but now I can't find it! It was a WIP when last I read it and I'd love to know if the author ever added more. I've added a description below the cut because, well, it's a bit graphic.

The story literally starts off with Sam's dick down Dean's throat as he orgasms. The curse breaks right in the middle and I think Dean actually pulls away before Sam is even finished and gets it on him. He is obviously upset and runs into the bathroom without saying anything. Sam is also pretty stunned and he ends up leaving the motel room and just runs as fast as he can as he tries not to think about everything he'd done over the past week(?) while under the curse. While Sam is out Dean runs off and calls on Cas and gets him to teleport him somewhere far away from Sam.

When Sam gets back he sees all these sex toys scattered on the floor and he has a flashback of using them on Dean and then making him lick them clean. It seems that during the curse Dean couldn't say no or resist whatever Sam asked of him and during the week(?) the sex got more and more violent and kinky. There's some mention that if the curse hadn't broken, Sam might have eventually killed Dean.

When I last read, Sam was driving and trying to find Dean. He was worried because he thinks that Dean is still being influenced by whatever cursed them. He was talking to Cas in the Impala and Cas eventually tells Sam where Dean was last even though Dean had made him promise not to.

I think Dean had been squatting in a house for a few days, but he's gone when Cas and Sam get there and there's frost on all the windows.

That's all I got. Sorry if it's a lot, but I really hope someone can help me find this story. I want to know what happens!

FOUND! in comments. Chaos Theory by salacious newt