"I'm not gay" (except they really are)

[lolryne.livejournal.com]

Hei guys! Okay, so, I'm looking for a bit specific recs!

1) I'd like to read fics where the plot concentrates on dealing with the 'I might be gay'-issue. I mean, I'd like to read a real big inner-struggle on the question, like "I am so not gay", maybe some "I don't like fags anyway" and some other hypocrit thoughts, you know?
It can be unrequited or not. The fic in itself doesn't have to lead on a relationship (though it's totally okay if it does), I'm more looking for freaking out / denial / anger and hopefully acceptance of oneself. (I like to have my heart broken so dark fics and angst / violence are okay too)
I'm still not comfortable with Wincest, but Dean/Castiel, Sam/Gabriel, or even any/OCs is cool.

2) Along the same lines, I'd really like to read a fic where one is having trouble admitting his homosexuality (to himself and to the others), but having a friend/brother/whatever to give him the "if you were gay that'd be okay"-talk. I'd really prefer if there were no romance between the two characters, though. Just platonic care/acceptance.

Comments

[reading-is-in.livejournal.com]

Eep, self pimp! for #1. If you'd be interested in Ben/Adam.I have an ongoing future-verse in which Ben's orientation is a major issue. Also featuring Bobby and OCs. Feedback has been good so far. Warning: Major characters are dead at the beginning.

Starts here:

http://reading-is-in.livejournal.com/27635.html#cutid1

[reading-is-in.livejournal.com]

ETA: Needs another warning. It's certainly not Wincest in the S/D sense, but one of the 'issues'/mysteries of the verse is that people don't know know their exact relationship to the people/person they are/were in love with...so if that's totally going to freak you out you might want to avoid XD