Hey!
I'm looking for a spcific fic I failed to safe in my unbelievable stupidity.
Facts I remember:
- eventually Wincest
- takes place shortly before Dean will have to go to hell
- Sam convinces Dean to go on a road trip (for leisure not hunting), because they’ve never done that before
- Sam becomes increasingly desperate, slowly realizing he won’t be able to safe his brother
- on their journey Sam tries to be closer to Dean in baby steps, Dean is rather reluctant
- at one point they are at a fun fair, Sam tries to kiss Dean behind a stall
- Dean eventually gives in to Sam
Additional details/how I rant about it in my head:
It's season 3ish, Dean and Sam are on the road, and it's, I don't know how long exactly, but a summer/a few months (or just one month) until Dean will have to go to hell because of the Crossroads Demon deal to safe Sam. Sam knows about the deal and becomes increasingly desperate. Of course, being Winchesters they don't talk about their angst etc., though Sam would like to, but Dean won't let him (again, typical Winchester). Sam tells him something like "I've never been on a road trip before" - Dean of course thinks Sam's crazy, because they're practically living in the Impala - but Dean humors Sam; so they go on a road trip. They are not in a relationship/just brothers/pretty canon-ish, BUT then during that journey, Sam makes attempts to be closer to Dean/talk to him about things. You don't realize immediately, it's kind of subtle, but Sam wants to finally act on his urge to kiss Dean/be sexually involved with Dean. It's kind of like Sam thinks it's now or never and wants to be with Dean before he dies, all "I thought we had more time"-like. Dean's reluctant. I think he would like to, but has a gigantic inner struggle going on.. I'm pretty sure that at one point they are at a fun fair and Dean has a cat face painted on, Sam eats cotton candy and tries to kiss Dean behind a stall. There might very well be some rather schmoopy star gazing somewhere in it. I can't remember the end, though they do end up having sex, I think.I hope somebody remembers this, I loved it, it was beautifully written, and I could facepalm all day thinking about that epic failed-to-safe..
Thanks so much for your help :)