LF specific fic - Drug-induced J2 non-con

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For the life of me I cannot find this fic that someone had already requested before. It's a J2-AU. Jared is in a fraternity / college athlete that surrounds himself with the typical frat boy crowd. He's deeply in the closet, and has been infatuated with Jensen for a while, although they've never spoken.

After a night of partying, his teammates (including Tom Welling) give him LSD without his consent. He starts tripping his brains out, seeing lights and sparkles that somehow lead him to Jensen. In his altered state of mind, he thinks it's a dream and forces himself on Jensen.

The story goes on to deal with the aftermath of the brutal attack, which Jared doesn't initially remember. Jensen has to be hospitalized for a while, and doesn't remember who got to him -- he also develops PTSD with a fear of this happening again because of his feminine features.

I think it's pretty long, and ends with J2 as a couple. Please your help is seriously appreciated!

ETA: Found! In the comments