FOUND: Suicidal sam, Protective dean, Young Winchesters

[3runaway-girl.livejournal.com]

This was definitely on Archive of our Own. Basically, Sam is suicidal, but can't flat out kill himself (duty to his family, maybe?), and instead, while going around checking the salt lines, etc., he prays to god, or a deity or an angel or someone to have a monster come and kill him. Dean overhears him praying, and they get all emotional and comforty and stuff.
Thank you!

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[daedricwitching.livejournal.com]

I know one like that, but it was on FF.net.
Praying for Cancer (https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10759216/1/Praying-for-Cancer)
Summary: Some people pray for good things to come to them. Sam Winchester isn't one of those people. His prayers aren't of good grades and toys, hope and redemption. He prays for something bad. He prays for cancer, or something equally terrible to happen-to himself.

[3runaway-girl.livejournal.com]

This is it! Thank you so much!