Close to Canon Sam/Dean/Jess

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Hi - I've looked for the last few hours at every post with the "Jess" character tag and I couldn't find this fic, even though I'm almost certain that I found it here to begin with. I found one of the "Jess" fics I was looking for, but not this one.

1. Jessica lives - Sam and Dean rescue her and get her out of the apartment
2. Sam is stitching her up in the back of the Impala; Dean comforts her, saying that Sam's stitching probably won't even scar, but Sam and Jess disclose that she had been pregnant.
3. Jess and Dean are doing target practice on their birthday; Jess muses that it's different from how she expected to spend the day (not sure if it was a thought, or was spoken to Dean)
4. They go back the the room and Sam has cooked a birthday dinner (Spaghetti, maybe?)
5. They have their first time as a threesome that night, Jess tells them that she knew about the two of them.
6. When Jess meets John, she gets up in his face for not thinking she's "good enough for his sons"
7. Jess shoots the YED with the Colt while he's using John as his meat suit
8. It ends at John's pyre, and Dean has not yet forgiven Jess for shooting John

It's not any of thenyxie's stories; it's not Transmutation by mona1347

As you can see, I remember the story VERY well, but I can't find it!!!! I've been meaning to ask if anyone knew it for months, since I discovered it was not in my "Jess" bookmarks on Delicious, but I wanted to thoroughly check the past posts first.