ETA: Found: dean killed Mary, john makes him eat salt/starve/being whipped to control him

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1 Specific fic and a few general requests

[cecemelchan.livejournal.com]

I'm looking for this one specific homeless teen Dean fic. He meets Castiel behind a dumpster behind the Roadhouse (I think?) when he's looking for a place to sleep after he got kicked out by his dad. In the end they both sleep there. They both work as a prostitute, sometimes together. One day Alistair kidnaps Dean and they don't find him for a few days (weeks?). In the end Dean ends up in the hospital and Sam and John are there as well? -->
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I lost all my bookmarks so if anyone could rec some longer (preferably at least 10k but if you think a shorter one is amazing too please add as well :) ) fics with these themes that would be great;
- Dark pre-stanford/stanford era. Dean centric.
- Abused!Dean (all the abuse, by everyone, canon or au)
- Abused!Castiel (again all the abuse)
- Abused Sam, but only by Castiel,Dean or John.
- Any other dark stories with Dark!Sam/Dean/Cas
- Any story where John comes back from the dead after season 5.

sick!sam, protective!dean

[retts.livejournal.com]

So. I read this story ages and ages ago at ff.net, probably around the time S1 aired.

Basically, Sam gets a cold that somehow enhances his psychic powers. He sneezes and things explode; lightbulb shattering and engines sputtering, those sorts of things. They try to find a solution and I remember they went to Bobby's for the cure. I also remember a scene where Sam was researching in a library and has a sneezing attack and the computers sort of explode.

I really want to read this one but I just can't find it anymore. And if you have more (classic or newer) whump!sam, sick!sam, hurt!sam, limp wrist!sam with protective!dean, then that would be awesome. Wincest optional but greatly encouraged. I just want to read hurt/comfort a lot. Thank you.