2 specific j2 fics (both dealing with mpreg) - both found

[j2-demon.livejournal.com]

1. A J2 mpreg fic where Jensen is in love with Jared, and after he sees Jared in bed with his stunt double he steals Jared's used condom to get pregnant. He didn't think it would work but it did.

2. Jared gets pregnant with jensen's baby but jensen doesn't believe it's his and thinks it's chad's? he leaves and then returns because the baby needs bone marrow or something?

Thank you in advance (and sorry ive been posting so much!!)

specific abo fic

[erica raab]

I'm looking for a specific alpha/beta/omega verse fic where Castiel was biologically omega but identified as an alpha.  But I would also like any abo destiel fics dealing with trans issues.

ugh I lost the same fic AGAIN *flails* bottom!sam, non-con, hurt!sam, witches

[michelle-36.livejournal.com]

Ok like I ligit remember LINES from the fic but I can't remember the name to save my life.

It starts out with Sam being controlled by a witch and raped in front of Dean. Dean's under some sort of spell, Dean somehow manages to break free of it and kill the witch.

The fic focuses mainly on the recovery and I really, REALLY remember how Dean grabs Sam and he just starts screaming and Dean's begging him to stop screaming and to come to him and Sam crawls over to him.

I'm pretty sure it's two parts and the first part is Sam thinking Dean hates him or something and the second part is Deans side and how he thought Sam hated him because he couldn't stop the witch.

Please help me, I can't believe I keep losing this fic. Honestly I've read it about a thousand times but there's just something about it.

(NOTE: It is NOT "The Missing" by Menthol Pixie, I know it does sound like it a bit. It is also NOT "Secrets of South Carolina" (I forget who it's by.)

Anyways I love all of you and thanks so much for dealing with me :D xoxox

2 general searches: young!Dean struggles for money& Dean doesn't take care of himself (Stanford!Era)

[samsflowercrown.livejournal.com]

1) Stanford-era fics where Sam notices that Dean didn't take very good care of himself while they were apart. (Not eating properly, not getting enough sleep, running himself ragged on hunts, not treating injuries well enough/"toughing it out", scars from crude patch jobs where he couldn't reach well enough to do the stitches etc.)

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2) My second is for the boys running out of food or money, Dean having to work multiple part time jobs and considering dropping out of school to keep them out of trouble (While John is on a hunt - maybe he didn't leave enough or was gone longer than they expected)
Especially if Sam is unaware of what Dean's going though.

I'd also like to exclude any fics featuring the boys and prostitution because non-con and dub-con kinda squick me out. :P Wincest is great though!

Broken Dean or Jesnen

[devils-pet.livejournal.com]

Hey guys, I'm looking for some stories where Dean or Jensen is just fucked up. I'm looking for some high quality angst in a Dean or Jensen centered story. I'm not pick about the length, and my preferred ships are J2, Wincest, DeanCas, and Cockles. I also prefer bottom!Dean and bottom!Jensen, so let me know otherwise, please. If it's RPS, please no wife-hate!
Thank you!!

Destiel torture fic - Found

[janie94.livejournal.com]

I'm desperately searching for a fic I read some time ago (maybe two years ago).
It was not an AU, but I don't remember up to which season it is canon compliant.
It started with Crowley telling the boys about something awful that happened and he eventually convinced them that Castiel was responsible for it.
When Cas shows up, Dean tortures him to get him to admit to the crime. When Cas insists that he is innocent and doesn't know what Dean is talking about, Dean uses a spell which exposes an angel's wings and uses his torture techniques on them. It scars Cas more than the previous torture (abusing an angel's wings is unforgivable and similar to rape).
After a while it turns out that Castiel was telling the truth and Crowley only set this up to get back to Cas for his betrayal in season 6.
Dean is shocked by his own actions and tries to beg Cas for forgiveness, but the angel is terrified of him and only allows Sam to touch him.
That's when I stopped reading unfortunately, so I don't know if it ended with Destiel, Sabriel or none of these.
I hope someone of you can help me out.