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[mandy-padackles.livejournal.com]

I'm looking for a fic, that was set pre-Stanford.
Well, it starts with Dean coming home from a hunt, hurt, and Sam feeling guilty because he refused to follow them because he wanted to finish his homework for school. Then there was a blowjob (Dean getting one from Sam :D)
Well, I don't really remember much, but it had Sam getting involved with drugs when he skipped school with his friends and Dean catching him. Sam was also upset because Dean wouldn't touch him or something like that. I remember reading until Sam asks John to allow him to go to school without Dean fetching him, and Dean reluctantly agrees. There was this line "yeah, you win Sammy" which I totally loved. And it ended with Dean watching Sam go to school in his friend's car.
Anyone can help me?? plz!! I really want to read what happens next.. :P
Thanks a lot!!