trying to find a specific fic (j2, au)

[lindseydewaelsc.livejournal.com]

I read this a while ago, and I remember loving it but somewhere along the way I lost this beautiful fic and for the life of me I can't remember the name. luckily I remember most details...
Its a spy au and jared is the spy and jensen is (i forget the word for it) but basically he guides Jared and watches him through cameras and talks to him through an earpiece. I remember Jared is flirty at first and Jensen is kind of grumpy, and i know sometime along the way jensen gets kidnapped and his back is really messed up, then they both go to hawaii or something?? i also know this is a death!fic and jensen is shot and then jared kills himself with a bomb or something.
Can someone please give me a link? ive been trying to find this forever, lol.

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[jennygeee.livejournal.com]

Is it this one although I don't remember it being a death fic:

Someone you might have been by fleshflutter- A J2 AU in which Jared is a secret agent and Jensen is his handler/support tech.

http://fleshflutter.livejournal.com/49137.html