iso wincest fic, & recs please

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Fic in question, I basically only remember part of the beginning in that a young Sam crushes on Dean. Dean doesn’t see or get that Sam is infatuated lusting after Dean, but John does. This leads to the tension between Sam-John, and John pushes Sam away off to college with Dean unaware of Sam’s feelings. That’s basically all I remember so this may be a premise in several fics? Any & all recs please!

Also any fics with a premise that something bad happens to Dean abuse/rape, but John does end up saving him, and Sammy doesn’t know maybe an added reason to why Dean blindly trusts John where Dean feels safer with John & he know Dean’s secret and Dean refuses to leave him, but where Sammy finds out when John goes missing and Dean has a hard time dealing about things without John in the picture kinda of fic.

Any fics with John being the protective 'good' father for either/both boys... & the boys discover to what lengths their father goes to protect & love them.

Or anything along the above lines you’d highly recommend, prefer wincest, or slash over het/gen, but will take any & all recs.

Thanks in advance!! ;-)